Christmas is my favorite holiday of the year. I mean, I really really love Christmas. I know it´s gotten a bad reputation the past 5, 10 years b/c Christmas isn´t really what it used to be - basically I think people have forgotten the real meaning of Christmas, which is family, and giving (real giving...not IPOD giving), and love, joy, etc. But for me, Christmas is still the best. I guess I´ve been lucky enough to have a really close family that still know how to enjoy Christmas.
This year is my first time away from my family on Christmas. I knew I would have trouble with this before I moved here, but I was hoping I´d get over it. Apparently, I am not.
As happy as I am to have my relatives in Germany to spend Christmas with, I have also been very sad about this Christmas. I really miss my family and I wish I could be with them too. It also doesn`t help that I was supposed to spend Christmas with a good friend, and that plan just completely and surprisingly (and painfully) fell through. So that just made want to go home more.
For some reason, I find myself sad (and sometimes crying) a lot this holiday season. I usually listen to a lot of Christmas music, but sometimes they just seem too happy. So I`ve been listening to a lot of depressing music instead. As horrible as this may sound, it´s nice to know other people are more sad than I am. I don´t why I just can´t get over it. It makes me angry at myself for being such a baby about it. But I just can´t help it.
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Oh Narf! I feel you dawg. My brother and I are alone and feel like orphans this Christmas. Our parents are in another country and the other brother is far off.
Miss you lots. Wanted to send you a goofy text. I'll email you to get your infos.
cuidate chica! -amanda
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