Unemployed....again

Once again I am unemployed. Since I found out a month ago that the class I was teaching would end, I decided to wait until closer to the end of February to start actively searching for a new job. Hiring here happens very quickly and I knew it would be useless for me to set up interviews with people and not be able to start immediately.

About halfway through February, the same week I decided to start looking, my current employer called me and said she might have something for me in March. It was a really good deal: location was closer to Madrid, one extra hour, and back to back classes in the same location, at an engineering firm. Even though I was hesistant to work with this lady again, I decided to tell her I would take it. It was too good...I couldn't pass it up.

So for the next two weeks, I didn't look for anything else. But I also didn't hear anything from the lady. I kept emailing her and she was not responding. I called her and she says she is waiting to hear from the company for confirmation. I thought about contacting other academies but I had already said yes to this lady. I didn't want to have another academy schedule classes for me and have this awesome deal go through. I didn't want to screw anyone.

Well, now I'm screwed. I kept waiting for the lady to hear from the firm. Last week, she said she'd let me know at the end of the week what day they want me to start. I thought it was a done deal...she just didn't know the start date. Well, Friday afternoon, I got an email from her saying that the company had decided to cancel the class. The 5 out of the 6 students who I would be teaching will be working in San Diego for 3 months and they didn't think it would be cost effective for me to teach one person (duh!). So no job for me!

I was a bit frustrated of course! I was frustrated because I wish I knew about it before I was unemployed. I wish I had gone ahead and started looking for jobs earlier. Now I have to go through the trouble of looking again, and feeling insecure and unstable. I know that I'll be okay and I should be able to find a job, but I can't help but be annoyed and frustrated. This shit stresses me out. Not knowing if I'll have a job or enough money to pay for rent stresses the hell out of me. Food I can do without, but not having anywhere to live in a foreign city freaks me out. I just get frustrated even more because that lady is just retarded! It's like how can she think it's okay to leave me hanging and tell me three days before I thought I would start a new job???!!!! She's ridiculous!

So the moral of the story is, screw everyone else. I need to just stop waiting and let things happen for myself! What was I thinking??? Maybe I'm retarded too.

Ugggh!!! Anyway, tomorrow I have a job interview and I am calling another academy. Hopefully, it's not too late and they'll have something for me.

As Lisa would say, I hate everybody!!!